katarzis | bro im straight up not having a good time

too zapped all the time to do anything but work at my stupid job that i hate, life blows because all i do is work at my stupid job that i hate so i've been trying to do things that i like in order to have something in my days that isn't a thing i hate but i keep hating what i'm doing with projects i used to like so i'm trying this new thing where i paint some stupid bullshit that i dont care about in order to actually paint anything at all without getting pissed at myself for ruining something because how do you ruin a picture of your hand holding a jar with coffee in? you dont