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surprising no one IM SO ANNOYED WITH MYSELF the first time this post was about how much i miss being unemployed and like, that IS still true but also i realise that i was romanticizing it a LOT despite having posted about how supes depressed i was when i was unemployed like, 2 weeks ago, like i did a lot of being sad before i learned how to enjoy myself so i know i can do that again, I DIGRESS, i went through this period then, the i am doing nothing and i hate myself about it only now with a side pity party about having to work m-f, but like, i was hit with the memory of basically writing the same sort of post like 'why am i doing nothing????' but in a physical journal in early 2020 so i went back and found it and its when i really decided to stop just binge watching tv all the time, which, i did, and now im like wtf how did i even have time for tv before but also like what am i even DOING NOW????
these last 2 degrees of saturn in capricorn are, too much, thanks
please learn a single lesson ever in your life kris.
August 4th 2020 9:36pm: do you identify too much as stubborn?
YEAH!!! DRAG ME, PAST ME! i do!! i blame by fixed ass chart!!
any
way
that post was originally REALLY about wanting to do more with the things i did do this year like, i'm really proud of the things i sewed this year but also..... i hardly sewed anything and it was all crammed in last minute instead of actually spending time doing the thing that i like... so, i want to do it differently this year, i want to actually learn new things instead of just using the skills i have already, ive been talking about learning how to make pants for SO LONG WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?? 2023 apparently? the year of pants!!
i read a fuck ton this year but hardly like, engaged with any of it outside of just the reading? aside from a few series but mostly it was just one read read read finished one? okay start a new one, read read, so i've decided i'm going to read a chapter a day of asoiaf in 2023 until i run out, but it'll take me about to the end of the year...... *looks pointedly at gorm* so i think it'll be a good/fun way to spend more time with the stuff i'm reading (which i think is what i was trying to get at when i cut out tv lol) and a nice way to start the day that is not just dick around on my phone u know?
these last 2 degrees of saturn in capricorn are, too much, thanks
please learn a single lesson ever in your life kris.
August 4th 2020 9:36pm: do you identify too much as stubborn?
YEAH!!! DRAG ME, PAST ME! i do!! i blame by fixed ass chart!!
any
way
that post was originally REALLY about wanting to do more with the things i did do this year like, i'm really proud of the things i sewed this year but also..... i hardly sewed anything and it was all crammed in last minute instead of actually spending time doing the thing that i like... so, i want to do it differently this year, i want to actually learn new things instead of just using the skills i have already, ive been talking about learning how to make pants for SO LONG WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?? 2023 apparently? the year of pants!!
i read a fuck ton this year but hardly like, engaged with any of it outside of just the reading? aside from a few series but mostly it was just one read read read finished one? okay start a new one, read read, so i've decided i'm going to read a chapter a day of asoiaf in 2023 until i run out, but it'll take me about to the end of the year...... *looks pointedly at gorm* so i think it'll be a good/fun way to spend more time with the stuff i'm reading (which i think is what i was trying to get at when i cut out tv lol) and a nice way to start the day that is not just dick around on my phone u know?
