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Jan. 14th, 2023 09:48 pmhow have the big picture circumstances of your life impacted your relationships since the beginning of this year? reflect on what has happened in your pisces and aquarius house topics for clues.
what relationships ended or became less close? which ones grew deeper in connection and intimacy?
how have the circumstances of your sagittarius house changed since 2018?
what are you focusing on in your sagittarius house now?
how have your spiritual, religious, and political convictions changed who you trust?
sagittarius is my 4th house (parents in general, father & paternal relatives, home/residence, land, farming)
aquarius is my 6th house (coworkers, employment, obligations, illnesses & treatments, pets)
pisces is my 7th house (spouse, partner, people you're in 1 on 1 relationships with, contracts, open conflict)
a) i'm doing this so late
b) AAAAAAHHHHHHHH ASTROLOGY REAL
god this all feels so connected to me i dont even know where to start. the circumstances in my 4th house, fuck lol, god. have changed so much, in 2018 alone carly moved out, my shitty former roommate moved in, i "ruined christmas" by refusing to attended any gathering where my trumper grandparents were gonna be (all of them)(funny how me not being there ruins it, but my nana not being there 9/10 times doesnt and yet she was still the one to get to spend the holiday with the family *white lady trying to make the math work.gif* i digress)
i spend the next 3 years kind of passively watching a 15+ yr friendship burn itself up from the inside (0/10 dont reccommend) and like 9 months near the end of that not... speaking to my mom at all, lol. also FUCKING COVID. the circumstances of my 4th house were changed by me not ever leaving my house due to global pandemic lmfao.
i think you can see how this feels connected right? basically everything i talked about there was about being in relationship with people. like roommate is a total 7h relationship and she's got pisces placements too.
actually, so does my mom. our relationship has gotten a lot better though, i think she takes me more seriously, and like, less for granted maybe? i do still think she should have someone to like Talk To that isn't me but, whatever, it's going in a better direction. she gave me the hook up for the job i have now, to wrap in that sixth house.
and like, maybe it's bc i AM employed again but i feel like i've been seeing more of that like, work friend vs friend friend designation? i dont know i've never really been one for being close with the people i work with? i guess my default mode is to hold people at a bit of a distance and i think that where with work, the thing that has brought me together with those people is really just 'i need money to live' and that isnt exactly a thing i love or am passionate about or like.... tells anything at all about who i am as a psn(and tbh even when i was passionate i still held people away) like, idk i saw a tweet the other day that was like 'yall go on about not being friend with the people you work with but at some point you need to socialize so that people dont dislike working with you' and my thing there is mostly, i dont need to be social with someone to be kind to them? i dont even need to LIKE them to be kind to them? i dunno, i just dont think its that hard to have a meaningless but nice relationship with people who you dont intend to bring any further into your life? it's like being flirty with cashiers, i'm maybe never even going to see them again but in that moment i think they deserve my full attention even if they don't mean anything to me personally? it's still people you know? doesnt it feel good when you have someones attention?