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a lot of the time at new years i do a big elaborate tarot spread bc it seems like the thing to do but then it's so much that i overwhelm and never actually think about it again so,
i'm just gonna do like, what is going to be the most challenging thing? what can i do to simplify it? how to persevere when i can't?
hm.
this feels a lot more, money (stuff) focused that i'd really anticipated lol
jan2:
but i guess, it IS something i've been thinking a lot about lately being the end of the year and all. i had three pay weeks in december so im actually more flush than typical with cash at the moment even having just paid rent/power so i've been thinking a lot about budgeting more diligently, and really making an effort to SAVE???? some fucking money because that always seems more attainable when you aren't actively in the middle of trying to scrape it together.
i keep doing this thing where i convince myself that spending time cooking meals is actually WASTING precious time i could be using for my other passions so getting delivery is actually the MORE reasonable option (dear reader,,,,, i know) and then i don't even spend all my ~extra time~ doing anything im passionate about!! like, purdy, if you're just going to spend 7 straight hours grinding in the hinterlands a g a i n you could at least chop up chicken and make your own fucking nuggets. christ.
soooooo as u may be able to parse, im having some issues wrt where we should be putting our time/money/resources *steeples fingers*
4 of coins is i think usually about holding on to things too tightly so my mind is going two places, holding on to things being the challenge itself, OR leaning too hard away from my current kind of loosey goosey nature to the point of miserliness? but im thinking probably the former but i'm glad to have them both in my mind, having things and keeping things is complicated. maybe it's about my dragon hoard of clothing :x
7 of wands is challenge, and i was kind of like, idk how you even simplify through challenge. but..... as noted above the fucking hoops i will jump through to justify the decision ive already made, are ridiculous and intricate. preemptively rolling my eyes at having to poke holes though my stupid "logic" lmfao
and i'm just going to hide entirely from the consistency that the knight is demanding of me, I KNOW, DUDE, "stop smoking so much pot so that you can form habits" pbbbbblllt
im twying *pleading face*
i'm just gonna do like, what is going to be the most challenging thing? what can i do to simplify it? how to persevere when i can't?
hm.
this feels a lot more, money (stuff) focused that i'd really anticipated lol
jan2:
but i guess, it IS something i've been thinking a lot about lately being the end of the year and all. i had three pay weeks in december so im actually more flush than typical with cash at the moment even having just paid rent/power so i've been thinking a lot about budgeting more diligently, and really making an effort to SAVE???? some fucking money because that always seems more attainable when you aren't actively in the middle of trying to scrape it together.
i keep doing this thing where i convince myself that spending time cooking meals is actually WASTING precious time i could be using for my other passions so getting delivery is actually the MORE reasonable option (dear reader,,,,, i know) and then i don't even spend all my ~extra time~ doing anything im passionate about!! like, purdy, if you're just going to spend 7 straight hours grinding in the hinterlands a g a i n you could at least chop up chicken and make your own fucking nuggets. christ.
soooooo as u may be able to parse, im having some issues wrt where we should be putting our time/money/resources *steeples fingers*
4 of coins is i think usually about holding on to things too tightly so my mind is going two places, holding on to things being the challenge itself, OR leaning too hard away from my current kind of loosey goosey nature to the point of miserliness? but im thinking probably the former but i'm glad to have them both in my mind, having things and keeping things is complicated. maybe it's about my dragon hoard of clothing :x
7 of wands is challenge, and i was kind of like, idk how you even simplify through challenge. but..... as noted above the fucking hoops i will jump through to justify the decision ive already made, are ridiculous and intricate. preemptively rolling my eyes at having to poke holes though my stupid "logic" lmfao
and i'm just going to hide entirely from the consistency that the knight is demanding of me, I KNOW, DUDE, "stop smoking so much pot so that you can form habits" pbbbbblllt
im twying *pleading face*
